Sometimes, when I’m feeling intense emotion, the best thing I can do is write. I throw words at the page: ANGRY, ENRAGED, STUPID, MAD AS HELL, hurt, ashamed, embarrassed. With each word a little of the emotion leaves my mind because it has a new place to hang out. On the page.
When my brother was very ill, I would go into another room and scribble my feelings and even draw shapes signifying anger or sadness. By basically vomiting them onto the page, I could go back into the room to help my brother feeling lighter and more able to help him.
I hope that by saying that today I feel ANXIOUS ANGRY DUMB MAD SAD INEPT FURIOUS CRAZY and HORRIFIC, I can move forward to see things more clearly.